They say that what you do on New Year’s Day sets the tone for the rest of your year.
Well, I woke up this morning in pain and confusion (fighting off a monster cold with every symptom in the book) but managed to drug myself up with enough DayQuil + ibuprofen to feel human again.
- Possible 2019 insight: Shit will be intense. Self-care for the win.
I did manage to finish a book this morning.
- Possible 2019 insight: This will be a year you FINISH THINGS? (Outlandish extrapolation FTW.)
I also sent an email about something that had been intimidating me for days. The composition and sending of the thing took far less time/energy than the sleep I lost stressing about it.
- Possible 2019 insight: Do the Thing instead of Worrying About the Thing and you’ll a) save time, b) save grief.
I tried something new that I was SURE would not work as advertised. Surprise: It did.
- Possible 2019 insight: Maybe trust things will go according to plan, every once in awhile.
I spent a goodly amount of time playing Red Dead Redemption 2, my new favorite game in the world, marveling at its beauty and complexity and how deeply the narrative is beginning to affect me.
- Possible 2019 insight: You need to remember why you got into this writing gig, girl. It’s because there’s absolutely nothing as satisfying to you as a well-told story.
Instead of ordering food or going out to obtain it in this FRIGID 9°F weather, I heated up leftovers for lunch and made a meal I found in the freezer for dinner.
- Possible 2019 insight: Resourcefulness FTW?
Last but definitely not least, I watched the first episode of BBC’s new adaptation of Les Misérables, one of my all-time favorite novels. It made me feel how the book made me feel.
- Possible 2019 insight: In your quest to voice the timeless truths you feel in your bones, remember how they strike you coming from other vantage points—their timbre and shape and particular character. Listen carefully. Watch closely. You can only learn from the masters you love so much if you spend time observing them in action.
File the following under Intentions.
- My 2019 word: Confidence.
- My resolution: When in doubt, lean toward the light.
More and more I have come to admire resilience.
Not the simple resistance of a pillow, whose foam
returns over and over to the same shape, but the sinuous
tenacity of a tree: finding the light newly blocked on one side,
it turns in another. A blind intelligence, true.
But out of such persistence arose turtles, rivers,
mitochondria, figs—all this resinous, unretractable earth.
—Jane Hirshfield, “Optimism” (thanks, brainpickings.org)